I remember when I had my first child. Although I played the role of a fiercely independent woman wanting a career, I desperately wanted something even more.
Growing up in a small town, afforded me the opportunity to babysit quite a bit. I started at a fairly young age with a couple of kids a block or two away from me, watching them during the day while their parents were working for the summer. It was great money AND they had a pool so I got to hang out poolside every day. Over the years, I built up a pretty good little side gig as a reputable babysitter. I loved babysitting and I loved children. I knew pretty early that I wanted children.
I never really thought about how many kids I wanted though. I guess I never thought that was something you decided. Needless to say, after my first baby, I knew I wanted more. Lots more. I can’t explain why. All I know is that I loved this sweet thing more than anything in the world and couldn’t imagine why anyone wouldn’t want to experience that over and over.
I’ve had plenty of naysayers over the years question why I would want such a large family. Friends, family, and even strangers have made some very harsh comments that caused very hurt feelings. To this day, I don’t understand why anyone feels it is okay to share their opinion on someone else’s life choices. I have one judge and it’s no one here on earth.
That being said, when someone speaks negatively about my ability or choices as my children’s mother….be warned, it will not be pretty. Don’t tell me why I should or should not have more children. You don’t know my body or mind. Don’t tell me I can’t afford to have more children. You don’t know my financial status or determination. Don’t question how I will love more children. You obviously don’t know unconditional love or my ability to love. Don’t question why I discipline my children the way I do. You don’t know what I’ve been through with each one nor do you know my resolution. Don’t question my motive when it comes to my children, ever. You have no idea for which the lengths I will go to protect my children and you don’t want to know.
At the end of the day, I am their mother. No one else gets to claim that role. I am the one person that knows them better than anyone on this earth and I will fight for them until my dying breath.
Happy Mother’s Day to all you amazing Boss Moms!